Author: Kitt O’Malley
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Regrets
Regret Not Being a Good Enough Mother Feeling sick, difficult to sit with how I have parented my son. It’s been hard, but I have done my best. I feel sorry for him. He complains that I yell at him, that I am abusive, too loud. That he experiences me as abusive kills me, causes…
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Where Am I Going From Here?
Went to group therapy Tuesday, and attended my first Toastmasters meeting earlier that day. Toastmasters was very structured, probably too structured for my tastes, though worked well in that they covered a lot of ground in one hour. Mentioned in group that I completed my continuing education units to renew my Marriage and Family Therapist…
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MFT License Activated
Just completed the continuing education units (CEU) required to renew and reactivate my California Marriage and Family Therapist license (LMFT) and sent my license renewal to the California Board of Behavioral Sciences. In discerning whether or not to do so, I had this email exchange with my friend JB: KO: Right now I am looking…
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Organizing My Thought Process
Tuesday in group therapy, my psychiatrist Alex Michelson (yes, he’s good, excellent actually, and practices in Mission Viejo, CA) pointed out that when sharing in group therapy I talked around my point until I finally getting to it. Unlike my writing which is usually terse and to the point, my speech (at least in therapy…
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#Search Engine Optimisation for #Indie Authors: How Far Should You Go?
in WritingThis blog post/article voices what I am quickly becoming overwhelmed by — the time and attention-sucking nature of maintaining a broad social media presence.
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Exhausted
Starting to recuperate from the last two weeks. Still exhausted. Sleepless nights, partly due to hypomania and stress, partly to dogs whining to go out in the wee hours of the morning. Too much 24/7 parenting. Home with my son almost two weeks, first when he had the stomach flu, second for spring break. Easter…
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Found Notes
Recently found some notes I jotted down while attending a workshop at The Gathering on Mental Health and the Church at Saddleback Church. Here they are: Enjoy speaking to individuals and small groups. Anxious when hear mental health professionals discussing mental health crisis intervention. PTSD for me. Difficult past experience. Do not want to go back…
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New Dawn
This morning I reveled in a beautiful drive through Santiago Canyon from my son’s school in Rancho Santa Margarita to a writers’ group in Orange, CA. Perhaps I should have stopped and taken a picture, but I did not, for I was too in the moment, enjoying the ride and taking in the scenery. The ride was pure…
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Day Tripping
Often I get caught in my thoughts, in daydreaming and talking to myself, even gesturing and make facial expressions to match my train of thought. Keeps me from being in the present and drives my son nuts, especially when I do it driving him to and from school. My hope is to get those thoughts…