White Christmas with snow-dusted ponderosa pines Christmas 2018 Christmas was both beautiful and bittersweet. We spent the holiday among snow covered ponderosa pines with close family, dearly missing our recently departed [...]
This guest post hits close to home. For twenty-one years, from ages eighteen to thirty-nine, I was diagnosed with chronic depression (dysthymia). I'd tell doctors that I was at least cyclothymic, for I my [...]
Frustrated, Defeated and Hypomanic The weekend before last, I was frustrated, overwhelmed, feeling defeated, and mildly hypomanic. I felt like a failure as a mother, for I hadn’t been able to get my [...]
Trying to keep hypomania at bay. NAMI training this weekend. IBPF panel next Tuesday. Frustrated with parenting newly adult son with social anxiety and migraines.
Those who know me well would hardly be surprised to hear (or read) that my mind is fried. Focused? Who me, focused? Nope. Instead, one project or comment gets me going in one [...]
Motherhood transformed me. My identity changed. Now it changes again. I have constantly reinvented myself over my lifetime. As a pre-med biochemistry major at UCLA, I was miserable and suicidal. Then I studied part-time [...]
Photo thanks to Gustavo Espíndola The praise came. Kitt loved to please. The more praise she received, the better she felt. The more she achieved, the higher she soared, until she couldn't. Her [...]
Living with bipolar is like walking on a tightrope, trying to maintain my balance, fearful of each step I take. As a young adult, I didn't understand what triggered my highs and lows. [...]
This morning I attended an OC Writers’ write-in. I haven’t attended a writers’ group in a long time. Been isolating myself and focusing on my son rather than my writing, rather than myself. [...]
Quoted excellent psychiatric diagnostic interview for bipolar II from Chapter 33 of David Leite's Notes on a Banana - a Memoir of Food, Love, and Manic Depression.