Hastywords asked me to participate in her #BeReal campaign. On my first response to one of her questions, I showed my insecurity rather than my confidence. Both are just as much a part of me. Just as real. I am not without self-doubt or self-loathing. I am both confident and insecure.
Here is her question and my first response. (I rewrote it and sent her a more confident response for publication.)
Q: What do you think most people think about you by just seeing your picture?
A: Left-hand image: middle-aged, fat, plain, sex-less. Right-hand image: white privileged bitch.
Honestly, I have no desire to analyze my response. Only want to put it out there. Sometimes I feel good about myself, other times I do not. I am not as sexy as I once was.
I do not present myself as sexy, for that would be inappropriate. My son would die of embarrassment, and my husband prefers that I present that side of myself in private only to him.
I am aware that I am privileged. I know that. I look like the educated, upper middle class suburban mother that I am. When I speak, I often use big words, which can be offputting. Not everyone likes me. So be it.
Kitt, I love the honesty you bring to each of your blogs.
Thank you, Sheri.
That sound pretty real to me! It also sounds like a reality many of us share. Be real, be free!
Thank you, Chris.
I like you just how you are. 🙂 I’m rather insecure as well. It’s what makes us who we are.
Exactly.
One thing I love about a blog is that we can formulate an opinion of another from their words alone. No picture needed, and often, just irrelevant.
Your words reflect beauty, sensitivity and intelligence. That is what “real” is to me. ☺
I am incredibly flattered, especially given how beautifully you write.
My sincere pleasure, Kitt. and thanks for the compliment. 💕