Motherhood is difficult. Over the years, I have felt torn between mothering, being a devoted wife, working outside my home, studying in seminary, and volunteering in my community. I have found myself repeatedly taking on and then reneging commitments due to conflicts in my responsibilities, the primary one being motherhood. On top of it all, I struggle with a potentially debilitating mental illness, bipolar disorder type II. For now, I stay home and write. Dust settles on and under furniture. The laundry waits.