Tired of writing memoir. Not just sick of writing about my mental illness, sick of living the same struggles day after day. Do not want to end my life. Far from suicidal. Just want to end both my symptoms and my son’s physical and mental health symptoms. I’m WAY over it. Sick of being sick. Sick of my son being sick.
Kitt, we have a choice to write about something else. Sometimes we have to let go of the thing we are holding onto the tightest to bring some joy to our day. I’m guilty of holding on to some really heavy things I cannot change. Perhaps, you and other readers of this blog response can show this tired, old man a new way to let go. Thanks.
Not easy to let go. Don’t be hard on yourself.
The only thing tougher than dealing with being bipolar, is watching your child struggle with it. Your words really reflect how hopeless I’ve been feeling. I’ feel I’m walking a thin line edging on insanity, worrying about my son, on top of trying to keep my shit together. Wow, I just really vented on you. I don’t have any one who can relate to this stuff to talk to. I hope I didn’t depress you further. I wish you and your son all the best.
No, I get it. I totally get it.
Hey Kitt,
I don’t exactly write about my illness…sort of around it. If I was doing a straight-up memoir, I’d have to do a little side writing once in a while as a fun outlet. Do you bounce into fiction writing to let your imagination roam around every so often?
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I don’t write fiction, but perhaps it would give me a break and exercise my creativity.
Sick of being sick too. Looking in my drawer of medicine and a month’s pill organizer worth of little daily boxes. Then I catch myself. I thank God for those meds., that I wish I did not need anymore. Oh the frustration. I get you Kitt. Hang in there.
Thank God for modern medicine.
I know, Kitt. I know. I’ve started two new medications in the last two months. One step forward, two steps back. (sigh).
Praying for you, my friend, and sending thoughts of love and comfort your way.
Thank you for your prayers. Sending you mine for adjusting to your medication changes.
Thanks, Kitt.
I just wanted to say that my thoughts are with you and your son, and I can appreciate the ‘sick of being sick’ feeling. I have that. I have days where I’m totally done with it, where I yearn to go back 10 years ago when things were more ‘normal’, when I just want to go back or go forward but without the health problems. It’s incredibly tough, and I know I can’t say anything to make it any better, I just want you to know you’re not alone and that there can, and will, be better days ahead. Caz x
Thanks. Hope future will be better.
You have my “like”, but what you really have is my understanding and sympathy.
Thank you!
I so hear that. For me it’s several decades of chipping away at chronic fatigue and fibromyalgia, and I really get that feeling of being sick of it without meaning something dire. Just sick of it. Sending visions of better days.
Thank you. I send you the same. Namaste.