Today I went to a writers’ meetup, and now I am just wiped out. Social stimulation exhausts me. I had a great time, but I’m just not up for it. Just not up for two hours of conversation. Damn fucking brain disorder. I HATE bipolar disorder. My brain is FRIED.
Look at it from my side, I can’t even be in the same room with other people to talk to them. Five minutes and I’m a nervous wreck. I’m 58 and I have two people I know well enough to actually spend more than 5 or 10 minutes with, and my med team. After that, it’s all electronic, or very business-like. No intimacy at any level. People like yourself are my heroes, because despite your disability, you overcome, and make a life for yourself. How cool is that? Please don’t put yourself down, you manage way more than I’ve ever been able to. 🙂
Thank you so much, but you, too, belittle your own achievements.
I guess I also have to work a little harder in that area. Thanks for the heads-up. 🙂
Hope the ibuprofen helped and that you have time to rest and recharge. I’ve definitely grown more introverted with age. Two hours of intense conversation is actually a lot.
I never got up to take the ibuprofen. Took too much effort.
How are you doing now?
Why hate Bipolar Disorder? Aspies hate conversation, too. Why not just hate two hours of conversation? We don’t all have to be social butterflies. It gets easier as you get to know the people. Still sets me off.
True. Maybe just the way I’m made and a matter of finding what fits me.
My husband keeps saying to me “Play the hand you’re dealt.”. And he also says know your limitations. You have a family and are doing so many things I admire. Give yourself a break. Sure it is a drag being mentally ill but in some ways it offers a unique perspective on the world. You’re doing great despite your handicap. I admire all you do.
Thank you, Ellen. I admire you, as well. Very much.
Thank you, Kitt! Surprised– means a lot!
Surprised? How could you possibly be surprised. You are a published author, and an accomplished poet, artist, and photographer. I am in awe of your artistic and spiritual voice.
A self-published author and I don’t think of myself as all that. Besides I think having a kid is such a grand achievement especially since you and your husband sound like such good parents. But thanks. I guess what is most important to me at this point in life is the spiritual. Thank you very much.
That is what ultmately matters. Honestly, I believe that all that really matters is that we give and accept love, that we open ourselves to it.