Worn Out

Exhausted

Overwhelmed
Not thinking clearly
Not able to complete sentences
Not able to answer direct questions
Fumbling with language
With spoken language
With what I hear
With what I read
So sleepy
Feared falling asleep
Driving to doctor’s office
Door locked
Looked at calendar
Over an hour early
Went back to parked car
Overlooking hill of eucalyptus
Enjoyed view
Tolerated gardeners
Noisy leaf blowers
Those things should be illegal
Wish I had slept
That extra hour
Though not sure
It would have helped
Seems there’s no refilling
This empty tank
No overcoming
This fatigue right now
Seasonal and situational
Wait it out?
Perhaps
Not sure

Kitt O'Malley2015-10-21T12:31:30-07:00October 21st, 2015|Categories: Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Mental Health, Seasonal Affective Disorder|Tags: exhaustion, fatigue, SAD|0 Comments

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Kitt O'Malley October 28, 2015 at 11:01 am

Thanks, Sandra. Still worn out, but it’s temporary.
Sandra October 28, 2015 at 3:57 am

Awww Kitt, I’m so sorry to hear that. I hope the problem is getting resolved (I’m a little late on my blog reads so by now you may have the energy of a race horse). But I have to agree, leaf blowers and lawn mowers…can we get a law against those please?
Kitt O'Malley October 23, 2015 at 5:44 pm

Thank you. Both seasonal and situational. This, too, shall pass. Only temporary.
Kitt O'Malley October 23, 2015 at 5:43 pm

Thank you so much, Diane. God bless you.
Jess Melancholia October 23, 2015 at 1:21 pm

I’m so sorry you feel so exhausted. Hope you find some clarity and that it is just seasonal/situational. Rest up and feel better!
writerwannabe763 October 22, 2015 at 6:04 pm

Thinking of you Kitt… I know it’s just so hard to concentrate.. but I do hope somehow it subsides soon… Diane
Kitt O'Malley October 22, 2015 at 11:17 am

Walking the line.
Kitt O'Malley October 22, 2015 at 11:16 am

LOL. Actually, I did go to bed early.
vanbytheriver October 22, 2015 at 3:33 am

‘Been there. sigh. Be careful, Kitt.
debiriley October 22, 2015 at 1:17 am

no worries 🙂
Marie Abanga October 21, 2015 at 9:08 pm

Kitt, I hope I don’t get a reply to my comment since you should be sleeping already by now … 🙂
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 7:36 pm

I’m going to lay down in my room without my laptop. Thanks for the advice. I have lavender oil which helps.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 7:35 pm

Thank you.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 7:35 pm

LOL
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 7:35 pm

My son is particularly sensitive to noise. When I’m hypomanic, I can hear my husband chewing in another room. Hyper-sensitive.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 7:34 pm

I know! I should NOT be online right now.
nshami14 October 21, 2015 at 4:29 pm

Hope u are sleeping right now and not reading this. :-] I like valerian & lavender tea and solitary confinement in my room until I rest. Hard to shut down, but sooooo necessary.
debiriley October 21, 2015 at 3:13 pm

worn out… those words just echoed what I’ve been thinking, and caught my eye. I hope, you will be able to get, take, steal, from somewhere – the time to get some decent, adequate rest and recovery time. Enough to do the Job!! 🙂
Just Plain Ol' Vic October 21, 2015 at 2:07 pm

Rest up Kitt. I would offer to sing you a lullaby but I think that would have the opposite effect! 😉 Thanks for sharing your thoughts!
bipolarfirst October 21, 2015 at 2:04 pm

This is such a great window into this place that happens in us.
Yes. Leaf blowers are tranquility smashers.
Petal and Mortar October 21, 2015 at 1:44 pm

I am definitely sleep-deficient right now, which is making one AID flare up. Not good. Yet I am still awake reading blogs. Sigh. I never learn.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 1:41 pm

Already taking Vit D & did gardening (natural Vit D). Probably need more sleep. Getting at least 7-8 hours. Perhaps I need more right now.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 1:39 pm

Thanks. I have to be careful with sun boxes – too much light irritates me and triggers hypomania. I do take D3. Not deficient.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 1:38 pm

Thanks!
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 1:35 pm

Thank you, Leslie.
Kitt O'Malley October 21, 2015 at 1:35 pm

Thank you. I’ve been sleeping, but apparently I need more right now.
Petal and Mortar October 21, 2015 at 1:28 pm

Sleep and Vit D are my aids.
dyane October 21, 2015 at 1:04 pm

Love you, rest up – we all understand here.
I forgot if you told me that you use a SunBox or similar therapeutic bright light for seasonal affective disorder. f not please-please get one. I love mine.
http://www.sunbox.com/product-category/10000-lux-bright-lights/
I got it long before I was diagnosed with any mood disorder! I just felt low and it was fall and I read some magazine article about them adn they sounded good to me. I use the SunBox DL (desk light) and I got it in the late 1990’s for $250 – it’s even lower $ now: $189. Some insurance companies even reimburse for it with a doctor’s note,although mine didn’t.
Also my pdoc made me start taking vitamin D3 a while back as I tested a bit too low for it in my blood panel, and of course I can’t remember the min. dose he wanted but it was more than what’s on my bottle.
Sorry to be Mrs. Fixit here – I just want you to feel better!!
XOXOOXOXXOXOXOO
Dy
p.s. Of course I can always drive down there with my assistant Lucy and I’ll give you my special ketamine/chocolate Talenti gelato injection!!!
bpnurse October 21, 2015 at 12:57 pm

I’m so sorry, Kitt. I know where you’re coming from, and you have my sympathies. Hang in there…it does get better.
Lynz Real Cooking October 21, 2015 at 12:44 pm

Take care! hugs
Leslie October 21, 2015 at 12:39 pm

I hate times like that. I’m sorry you’re going through it, Kitt.
Laura Droege October 21, 2015 at 12:34 pm

I hope you get some sleep, Kitt! You’re too valuable of a person to walk around sleep-deprived and energy depleted. Take care.