Inspiration
So now that I am no longer hypomanic, the big question is will I continue to write? Where will I get my inspiration without the push of manic thoughts and my need for [...]
Balancing Priorities
Motherhood is difficult. Over the years, I have felt torn between mothering, being a devoted wife, working outside my home, studying in seminary, and volunteering in my community. I have found myself repeatedly [...]
Living in My Head
I live my life in my head, in thoughts, in daydreams. My thirteen year old son, sitting next to me in the car, sees me gesturing to my internal monologue and urges, "Mom, [...]
Compassion Meditation
May sharing this Compassion Meditation bring peace. May I be held in compassion. May I be free from pain and suffering. May I be at peace. May you be held in compassion. May [...]
Obsessive Thoughts
We never really know the content of others' thoughts, if they think in the same way as we do, in words, conversation, images, or impulses. When I was in my twenties, I sought [...]
The Window
Years ago my father-in-law made this gorgeous stained glass window to fit a port-hole window in our house. We've moved a few times since with that window boxed up and stored for later [...]
Siren Song
I have heard the siren song of alcohol and marijuana. Craved the quieting of my thoughts, the slowing down. Prescribed medications do help immensely, but I still understand and am wary of alcohol's [...]
Theology
Under the heading About God I will be publishing edited and adapted versions of essays I wrote while attending Fuller Theological Seminary. These essays were written in the language of Christianity, in language [...]
Grief, Anxiety, and Hypomania
So what brought on this flurry of activity, this bout of defensive hypomania, the birth of this blog at this point in time? Two things: one, I forgot to take valproic acid Thursday [...]
Titrating Stimulation
Find I must titrate exposure to stimulation. Need enough to prevent depression, but not so much as to trigger hypomania. Enough, but not too much sun. Have to be very careful with social [...]