Back to the Mundane
As my mind has slowed, I've gone from prolific blog writing to playing solitaire on my iPad. Back to the inane, the mundane. Not as creative, but better able to take care of [...]
Hunger and Headaches
Now that I'm on a higher dose of Depakote (valproic acid), I'm always hungry and have a headache. I cannot satiate my hunger, and I tire of popping ibuprofens to relieve the dull [...]
Mosaic Tile Shelf
My son designed this mosaic tile shelf which I recently made. Having ordered a box of random broken Talavera tile, I ended up with a lot of yellow tile. Apparently yellow was not [...]
Mind Slog
Depakote (valproic acid) dosage increased. Thoughts slowed way down. Now slogging through my mind. Inspiration gone. Where is my muse? Know I needed to slow down, to catch my breath. Know this increased [...]
Inspiration
So now that I am no longer hypomanic, the big question is will I continue to write? Where will I get my inspiration without the push of manic thoughts and my need for [...]
Balancing Priorities
Motherhood is difficult. Over the years, I have felt torn between mothering, being a devoted wife, working outside my home, studying in seminary, and volunteering in my community. I have found myself repeatedly [...]
Living in My Head
I live my life in my head, in thoughts, in daydreams. My thirteen year old son, sitting next to me in the car, sees me gesturing to my internal monologue and urges, "Mom, [...]
Obsessive Thoughts
We never really know the content of others' thoughts, if they think in the same way as we do, in words, conversation, images, or impulses. When I was in my twenties, I sought [...]
Siren Song
I have heard the siren song of alcohol and marijuana. Craved the quieting of my thoughts, the slowing down. Prescribed medications do help immensely, but I still understand and am wary of alcohol's [...]
Grief, Anxiety, and Hypomania
So what brought on this flurry of activity, this bout of defensive hypomania, the birth of this blog at this point in time? Two things: one, I forgot to take valproic acid Thursday [...]