Regrets
Regret Not Being a Good Enough Mother Feeling sick, difficult to sit with how I have parented my son. It’s been hard, but I have done my best. I feel sorry for him. [...]
Where Am I Going From Here?
Went to group therapy Tuesday, and attended my first Toastmasters meeting earlier that day. Toastmasters was very structured, probably too structured for my tastes, though worked well in that they covered a lot [...]
Organizing My Thought Process
Tuesday in group therapy, my psychiatrist Alex Michelson (yes, he's good, excellent actually, and practices in Mission Viejo, CA) pointed out that when sharing in group therapy I talked around my point until [...]
Exhausted
Starting to recuperate from the last two weeks. Still exhausted. Sleepless nights, partly due to hypomania and stress, partly to dogs whining to go out in the wee hours of the morning. Too [...]
Day Tripping
Often I get caught in my thoughts, in daydreaming and talking to myself, even gesturing and make facial expressions to match my train of thought. Keeps me from being in the present and [...]
Another Late Night
A couple nights ago, or perhaps it was simply last night, I was up late, unable to fall asleep. Finally, at 1:30 am, I decided to check if I had taken my night [...]
LMFT
Back in 1990 I got an MA in psychology from New College of California. I worked hard over the next two years to rack up the then required 3,000 internship hours, and study [...]
NAMI Peer-to-Peer
To join a NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) Peer-to-Peer group, or not to join a NAMI Peer-to-Peer group? That is the question. If I am to volunteer for NAMI, I must first [...]
To Work or Not to Work
My past experience has been that in the workplace I become overstimulated, that I take on too many responsibilities, overwork, and burn out. Taking care of my husband and son, as well as [...]
Not Just Dysthymia
Not until I was 39, was I diagnosed as having bipolar disorder. I am now 50. At 39, I recognized the symptoms of mania in myself, euphoria, the feeling of being called by God [...]