Help My World is Chaos
We've been in the process of renovating our house over the last three years. My husband and I made the HUGE mistake of buying materials for several major projects up front, making decisions on [...]
Manic Temper Tantrum
Tasmanian Devil (Looney Toons) Last night I blew up and had a full-on manic temper tantrum. I forcefully threw my iPad down and then proceeded to flip over the kitchen table. Crap. [...]
Denial Fails Me Now, or F*ck Cancer!!!
GENETIC TESTING FOR HEREDITARY CANCER In group yesterday afternoon, my psychiatrist recommended genetic testing for hereditary cancer syndromes (of which there are 50). He advocated doing so to guide future medical care, [...]
Dragging My Knuckles
My Brain and Mood Today ~ Grey and Cloudy with a Chance of Rain Yesterday saw my nephew off at the airport. Now I'm dragging my knuckles on the ground. Head [...]
Sh*t Forgot My Meds Last Night
Divalproex Sodium, my mood stabilizer Last night, in the midst of a change in routine, I forgot to take my night-time medication. When I saw that my pill-box still contained last [...]
Brain Slog Today
Brain Slog Self Portrait Okay, now as the result of overstimulating myself into hypomania and over-work by obsessively and excessively engaging in social media and spreading myself too thin --> I'm totally [...]
Doctor’s Orders
Yesterday afternoon I saw my psychiatrist at group therapy. After confessing that I've been spending over ten hours a day (honestly, probably far more) on social media and that I've been unable to [...]
Another Late Night
A couple nights ago, or perhaps it was simply last night, I was up late, unable to fall asleep. Finally, at 1:30 am, I decided to check if I had taken my night [...]
Stepping Out and Meeting Up
Started going to group therapy and two writers' group meetups the last three weeks. Not sure how much "work" I can take on right now. Attending group and the meetups is a big step [...]
Lent | The Rites of Spring
For many, spring is a time of celebration and remembrance. - Deseret News, March 7, 2009 Two days ago was Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. Although I did not have my [...]